ignore previous post. hahah!
decided not to move. this blog thingy driving me nuts, the editing & stuff.
lebih rela stuck at here for now.

"All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you."

[extracted from: built to last by Melee]

If I could turn back the time
will we at where we are now
i'm comfortable at the position I'm
but I'm hoping for something more
something real, something everlasting.

If I could turn back the time
will this feeling came by again
will we be this close
for boy oh boy
I'm just so crazy of you.

You're all I want
you got that charm that attracts me
you got that character that makes me ticks
your humour tickles me
the laughters you gave brings warm to me.

boy oh boy
If only we could turn back the time
probably we could be something more than what we are now.

Okay let’s do some blogging. Kind of lazy actually. I have been dragging this post ever since yesterday night.

Had an awesome day out with the Musketeers, except that Yayat & Nisa weren’t there. Went to Sentosa with them, the weather was okay, a bit sunny & rainy. It’s a good thing we sit near the Emerald Pavilion so we are shaded from the rain. Babes, dudes, beach, water what more can I ask? I’m blessed by the day yesterday, boyfriend is okay, changing and showing more love than he used to be. Behave well okay boyfriend, and I’ll do my best too.

Overall the day is fine, and I had a great day out. Now going to plan for the next outing. Gonna need some food now before going off for work.  

i'm not mentioning names but if you think i'm talking about you, i'm sorry.

dear BF, i'm sorry if nowadays I've been neglecting you. I'm lost with myself, and needs time alone. I search my soul these few days, and I found the answer to my problem. I'm simply sorry if I've not been spending enough time with you, if I've been cheating on you, if I've been lying to you all along. BF, I don't know what's going on, but you are simply treating me good nowadays, either because you’ve finally realized the fact that I’m the One, or because you are just playing me on. I don’t know and I just hope the best for us, seriously I’m keeping y fingers crossed for now.

Dear FREN, thanks for hearing me out yesterday. After confessing to you, I felt super duper good inside. The journey is still a long way to go, and like what you say, the road always ends, either fast or slow it’s in our hands. I’ve said my piece, now it’s time for yours to put on a show. The world is your stage & I’ll be your faithful audience. For me now, let’s know each other more for one day I’m afraid to realize that we just aren’t perfect for each other. I just hope you wont change & continue this friendship that we had. I’ll appreciate it a lot, thanks!

Till now shall I write, for I’ve expressed out all that I need. & now it’s time for a good mind rest.

[captured from error-to-terror.blogdrive.com]

dear fren, you gave joy ever since i started to know you
and at this point of time, all i wish was I could express myself out
for I'm afraid i'll be dumbfounded when we meet
and together we shall laugh, gossip and simply makes stupid jokes.

and i'm glad to know you're staying, for I know I gain a new crewmate
and I know I can depend on you for more happy days
thanks for the laughters you bring dude. (:

"ur so cute when ur mad"
i can fall for these words dude and that's the last thing I want now.

The thought of my crew mates leaving seriously brings me down. And each day, I’ve to find new reasons why I’m coming to work, and I need a new crew mate seriously.

I miss those moments when Alif is still around, remember those few weeks he enter in T3A. always unsure about the food & drinks, blur2 around always. Then came in Hafiz, the tall & big giant, noisy & playful right from day one, never serious at work. & Lastly Saz came in. Remember his first day also, name in schedule is Kamil, sekali in name tag Saz. Wahlau! And remember the day, Hafiz saw his TCC membership application form; name shown in card: Sazzero and from that day onwards, we started to bond well with each other.

And without us realizing, we shares many fun moments together, those crazy fri & sat crowd, hanging out together, gossiping around, sharing our laughter. And times passed by so soon until its time for Alif to go, following by Benny & Saz, lastly Hafiz.

That particular thought nowadays brings me reasons on why I should came to work, and I’m losing heart pretty soon, with Jaja nowadays 50% half hearted already, work is never fun anymore. Friends may come and go, but at least the memories stays, and those memories you gave, have been the sweetest ones ever since I came in TCC, and I want it to stays. And crewmates, I want a next outing, a complete one please with Alif.